even when i shouldn´t

it had been 7 or 8 months since i heard from him
it felt like eternity..
and yet, there he was
he called me and then came over
..standing in front of me
staring at my eyes
holding my hand
..i don´t quite know how to feel
i thought i had it all figured out
truth is..i missed him too
even when i shouldn´t
and i was so hurt..
but i guess some things will prevail
whether we want it or not
whether we are conscient about it or not..
..and bottom line is
i want his words to be true
even when i shouldn´t believe in him..